Have you ever done anything in your life that you regret so fucking much that you don't think you can ever really feel good about yourself ever again?
This is going to seem really dumb, but here is the biggest thing I regret. When I was 8 years old, and still going to church (not be freewill I assure you), my youth minister had this great idea that we should have an air guitar contest. When it came my turn I started "wailing" and was really getting into it. But then I saw these two or three boys laughing at me and I stopped because I didn't want to feel stupid. Nevertheless, I didn't win and once I got older I always wished I had really won that thing because I may have developed into the person I am today alot sooner. So there's my big regret: not winning the goddamn air guitar contest. Anyway, don't laugh to hard.....
This is a big fucking bitch. It's such a bitch it almost deserves it's own thread.
All the info I was digging up on the facility I work at and the catholic organization that owns it, proved to be exactly what I had feared. They sold us.
The good news is, which when you finish reading this, you will realize it really isn't that good of news.....is that it was sold to a man who will keep it as a nursing home.
The bad news is, the guy that bought it owns several nursing homes in Chicago and they are all dumps. We were non-profit, we will now be for profit. This man goes in and immediately cuts staff drastically. The less employees he has to pay, the more money he makes. The less employees we have, the quality of care declines. I have found out that at his other nursing homes each shift is "allotted" a certain amount of supplies and you cannot get more if you need them. Things like bed sheets, towels, washcloths, etc. Employees at these nursing homes have told me that they end up having to do whatever they can. For example: You have a few too many "accidents" by the Residents and you are on second shift. You have run out of your allotted number of bed sheets, blankets, everything. Because staffing has been cut so bad there is no one to do laundry on second shift and there are not enough aids or nurses on the floor to leave and do laundry. So, the only choice they have is to quickly run the urinated soaked sheets through the dryer and put them back on the bed. Disgusting? Very much so. This is how this man lets these nursing homes be run. All because it puts more money in his disgusting, filthy hands.
The thing that really pisses me off is that the catholic organiztion that owns us KNOWS this and they DON'T CARE. We don't make enough money for them so they just want to dump us. How very christian of them, wouldn't you say? Now, in the meantime this same catholic organization has built a multi-BILLION dollar nursing home for their NUNS! State of the fucking art everything. And yet, they don't give a shit about these poor people that live at my nursing home. That can't keep us because we don'e make them enough money!!
They not only are selling the home, they are also stripping it, apparently so they can sell off anything and everything to make some more money for themselves. They sent 3 nuns today to take inventory of everything. They will take all the pictures on all the walls, they will take all the furniture in the lobby, the board room, the staff lounge and all five family/Resident sitting rooms!
Because the new owner is Jewish and wants the facility non-denominational, the chapel has to be de-sanctified and stripped. Which I could give a shit about that.....BUT.....they KNOW that most of the Residents there are very devout catholics. They grew up with Vatican I. They will have no chapel, they will not get their fish on Fridays, they will not get their communion services. (Now mind you, this may seem like nothing to us, but to them......it will be devastating). And this CATHOLIC organization knows all this and they don't fucking care. They don't fucking care about their own people.
I'm so fucking disgusted I don't know what to do. I hate thinking about what these beloved old people of mine are going to go through in their last days. As much as I care deeply and love these Residents and the care of these Residents is my main concern, with staffing cut so low, you cannot keep up a decent level of care. These Residents are very dear to me, they have become my family and me theirs. But there is no way, no matter how hard we all work, no matter how much we all care, we won't be able to take the time with them as we should. (And I shouldn't even include myself in that equation....I don't know if I will have a job)
Oh, there is one consolation. One of the nuns said today they would all be praying for us. WHAT THE FUCK? You are dumping us in to the hands of a money grubbing, filthy, disgusting man that will ruin our home and kill our Residents (all the while your retired nuns are living in th lap of luxury) but you will fucking pray for us? Fuck you.
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