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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 7, 2005 18:49:31 GMT -5
Alot of the stuff I write doesn't really come out as poetry, but I still wanted a thread for us who jot random, yet intelligent and stimulating, thoughts that we may stow away and find when we least expect it. I dub this thread "FREEWRITE."
None of these will have a title so i'll just label them as Random.
Random #1
You see a corpsed hollow contained in skin, just like a man. You see past. See through the features, but what you're seeing is an empty blank canvas. A seemingly soul-less bum. But I see a work of art in the making. The greastest of master pieces started with a blank canvas on a dry easel. Reds and blacks. Green with yellow-purple oranges and most of all white. Most of all clear. Most of all unique. Unique in colorless form. He stares back at you and sees an ugly oil painting. Paint brush in hand, but not good enough to change the world. Maybe that's why he's here. He's color blind and looks at the world through lenseless glasses. Too full of luster for material properties such as color. He will mold you from the clay. He will sculpt you and paint you. And he will laugh with brilliant shine as you drown in paint thinner. He is beautiful forever.
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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 7, 2005 18:55:09 GMT -5
Random #2
This is the part where your suppose to laugh. That new car smell has just worn off and you are left with nothing less than an empty hand full of broken dreams. That's all she wrote folks. Please observe the no smoking signs and put your brains in their upright position. Buckle your saftey harness because we are touching back down to reality momentarily. You can't blame us. If you had bother to read the disclaimer you would know that during long flights hopes and happy thoughts can fall below. We are not responsible for lost items.
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Post by xxxxSTINKFISTxxxx on Mar 8, 2005 14:43:03 GMT -5
Ah good idea for a thread  Your thoughts are interesting, ill be submitting alot here as well since i spend a good 3 horus of hte day wrighting for no reason lol. |
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Post by lilacJ on Mar 8, 2005 15:02:15 GMT -5
This is brilliant VOG! I haven't put anything in the poetry thread, cause my stuff isn't in the Poetry catagory, I just type stuff that comes to mind, versus, paragraphs..... Yours are really inspiring, nice thoughts. |
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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 8, 2005 15:34:12 GMT -5
Yours are really inspiring, nice thoughts. Thank you~ |
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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 8, 2005 15:35:10 GMT -5
as well since i spend a good 3 horus of hte day wrighting for no reason lol. We are one in the same. Allot of my thoughts feel like their inteliigent to me but they never really have any substance or concrete feeling to them, so I'll just jam 'em in here! |
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Post by Halo on Mar 8, 2005 21:48:16 GMT -5
Very good idea for a thread vog. I like it!! Thanks. Your random thoughts were great. I may tend to ramble nonsense.  |
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Post by TheAnomicSoul on Mar 9, 2005 19:40:32 GMT -5
I was just sittin in my room listing to Portishead and I had alot of thoughts sworming around in my head. It's not really intellegent but it all just came out.
What the hell am I doing here? Am I here to be hurt evreyday because I am. Did God just plant me here as a tainted seed to be saddend? What am I gonna live for, what can I possibly die for? Absolutley nothing. I am nothing, my life is nothing. I breathe no breath,I cry no tears,I scream without a sound, & I speak with no voice. Evreything I do in my life I end up regretting so why bother? Am I a mistake to this world? Whenever I am happy somebody comes in and kills my happiness. I'm like a living ghost. I walk with no footsteps, touch without a feeling, and I live a life in absence. My feelings have been hurt to many times to count. I feel like I have none at all. Once again I find myself drowning in a pool of deciet,pain, & agony. I need to swim away but I can't. The water clings onto me like a leach. I'm stuck in this pool for eternity. I might as well get comfortable because it looks like I'm not going anywhere positive.
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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 9, 2005 20:12:40 GMT -5
Good write A-Soul. Glad to see more people contributing. I especially liked the last line.
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Post by TheAnomicSoul on Mar 10, 2005 0:01:15 GMT -5
Thanks, I like yours as well. Good thoughts.
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Post by Halo on Mar 10, 2005 0:21:01 GMT -5
If for nothing else right now, live for you and for the music. More will come once you learn to live for yourself and love yourself. And music will always be there for you. You're speaking here now, with a voice full of expression. Continue to express yourself and you will find your voice. Evreything I do in my life I end up regretting so why bother? Never regret. Just learn. Am I a mistake to this world? People are not mistakes. Their actions can be mistakes, but we are born pure. It is what you make of your life. You are not a mistake. None of us are. because it looks like I'm not going anywhere positive. You are already being positive by writing down your feelings. Even if the feelings are sad, it's still a positive step by expressing them. |
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Post by TheAnomicSoul on Mar 10, 2005 2:17:27 GMT -5
Thanks for the optimistic run down ;D I do live with the music I write and listin to.That stuff keeps me alive at times. Sometimes you have family and friends to keep u sane but I really dont have that. My parents divorced & I live with my dad and he is home for about 3 days out of evrey week and when he is home he sleeps. And he isnt really the type of dad u goto and ask for advice he is the type that pushes you to work harder in the things u do which is good. I'm not saying he is a bad dad but he isnt the type of dad i would really like to have. But I am happy i have one because I knew people who didnt have a dad and things arent really great with them. And I dont have many friends most of them live in Indiana & I havent talked to them in years. It's good to have a place where i speak with a voice and i dont get beat down with negativity and insults.Eventhough my voice is through a keyboard it's still good.  Sometimes in life u make choices and u reflect on them and you regret it. But yes you do learn from your mistakes and try not to make the same mistake twice. But like i said it seems like evreything i do i end up regretting in the future. I lived around alot of people who all seem to fit a description of happiness and mistake free lives. I know that that isnt the real picture because nobody's life is that way. Evreyone seems to know who they are and what they stand for. I just dont feel that way. I'm not really sure why I am here or what I can possiblly live for. But yet I'm only 16. It's just that my life seems to be alot diffrent then most the people I know. But yet I had alot of friends who went through their own problems which are worse than mine. So I'm not sayin my life is entirley a mistake but I guess I feel like it is because of the way things are and how certain situations pan out. If i thought to the fullest that I was a mistake I would have died already. I'm still breathing so I guess I live for something but I dont really know what it is or what it can possibbly be. I'm not a suicidal person at all. It may sound like it but I would never take my life over the pain that life and people give you. You gotta hold strong and take it and deal with it the best way possible. I think telling my sometimes sad thoughts are a step in the positive way but i still think that way alot. Evreything I do ends up going in the exact wrong direction I plan it too. With the choices I make or the things I say. Just recently I had this friend who I've known for about a year. And she had alot of problems and she came to me alot for guidence or help. I'm not a psychologist and I'm not really good at talking people out of suicidal situations or making people happy when they are in a very depressing mood. And after attempting to help her for a long period of time she ended up killing herself. And I tried to be the most positive person and help her in the best way I could. And after u do that and things turn out in the opposite way you cant help but feel you didnt try hard enough for be positive enough to help that person. It's kinda like Sleeping Beauty in a way.I guess that is why I feel like I'm not going anywhere positive. With all the negativity that has been thrown at me and always having an opposite impact in a positive situation I guess you feel that way on things. I thank you very much for your words It's good to express these feelings and have people like you say positive things about the issues in it. Man I need to calm down with the very long posts. |
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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 11, 2005 15:32:30 GMT -5
I'm frozen here at work today (stuck seems like a weak word). I just started typing in Word and here's what came out.
My words are in a room full of mirrors and it appears all eyes are on me. The percentage of my wasted brain is growing stronger. I am without concrete substance and my joints are made of liquid. I can't move and the air is stale. So here I sit in this swivel chair rotating the gears of the clock tied to my life expectancy. What if I just stood and screamed profanity? Would you notice? Or would I just flutter and fade like the breaking of bubble parper? I am merely a guinea pig at this point. I am growing feeble of defending this war just to speak my peace. Nobody listens to mute voices unless there's an envelope of money behind them. My words again are broken with useless attempts to add emphasis. I shutter at the thought of trying to strain my cheap metaphors. I hide behind smiles and imitation handshakes, but in reality I hate this exact point in time. I hate the tiny unimportant ants that scurry around me. They are so fast-paced and racing in a hurry to get no where. Where the fuck are you going? Don't rush your demise. Stop trying to march robotically to the gates of your judgment. You are all mindless drones and I wish I had the stomach to swallow your bullshit.
*ahh* I feel better now.
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Post by lilacJ on Mar 11, 2005 18:27:17 GMT -5
So do I! ;D Thanks VOG, been feeling like that of late.... must be some kinda connection going on..... singing the same songs....etc.....etc...... I MUST get back to writing..... |
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Post by voiceofgod on Mar 12, 2005 8:33:35 GMT -5
must be some kinda connection going on..... I MUST get back to writing..... Must be something. Maybe we're long lost twins. LOL Yes you should get back into writing and post here!!  |
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