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Post by moneyisevil on May 25, 2005 17:30:45 GMT -5
YOUR BIG DAY
Clothes are handpicked
And shining a glow
Are you sleeping forever without dreaming?
Lying so calmly
With hands on your chest
Staring up at forever
Sleeping motionless with time
Waiting for your final resting place
So you can rest in peace
Side by side
Twinkling in the night
A light that burns forever
Carrying on the way ‘now’ does
Metal may frame you
And dirt may be your new home
Boutiques of flowers
Kneeling I moan
Are you in heaven?
Are you beside time?
Will I ever know?
What happens when we die?
I feel it collapse
I feel the tears started to churn
We are living to only die
A strange visit this has been
Nothing makes sense
When you let go of all worldly affairs none of this makes sense
Can you see with your two eyes?
Or do you ‘see’ with your mind?
Or is there just nothing,
Reality is its disguise?
The process was nerve wrecking
I don’t want to think of mine
It scares me to think
I’ve wasted a lot of my time
What happens when an organism dies?
Does a consciousness ever terminate once it is created?
The bardo state…where is the bardo state?
Dissociation from body
Dizziness and memory fades
I forget who’s in the room
I forget who I am
My tongue will dry
I’ll feel like I’m sinking
Will I wake up?
Or will I die thinking?
One more question before I go.
Is this what you wanted?
I didn’t think so.
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Post by TheAnomicSoul on May 27, 2005 0:50:23 GMT -5
^Pretty damn cool  Bee in a JarHere, Here I am again Alone, alone again Remembering what happend then There, There he goes again Out the door again Here I am alone and tired Pealing my skin off Here I am, Craving what I desired My eye balls burst into flames And I'm feeling happy Cause I have a bee in a jar The only place where i can find joy Some people say it is bizzare That I have a bee in a jar But they dont know They just dont know Step by step I lose my mind Every single breathe i take I feel less awake But I have a bee in a jar So things arent as bad as it seems I have a friend in a jar I don't need a car Puking out my past That I've seen before my eyes Realizing that the past Has come back to me And my fingers fall off And shatter as they hit the ground I'm decaying away But I have a bee in a jar I feel so happy I have a bee in a jar I don't need your fucking car I think i'm losing my mind As I continue to write This dosent even make fucking sense But I have a bee in a jar So i'm more than happy Look at my bee in a jar I think he likes you I lost both of my legs I'm crawling on my belly I lost a arm But I'm feeling happy I have a bee in a jar Nothing else matters Oh no, I dropped the jar The bee as flown away Now I'm sad again I'm all alone again My friend has flown away |
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Post by SparrowsSoliloquy on May 27, 2005 21:07:54 GMT -5
Clearly not one of my best... but here it goes:
Night falls and Im alone.
Shadows dance across the wall, I give them a place in my mind, and in my imagination they find a home.
Somwhere there is a fire burning
Somewhere inside she is crying.
And outside the stars are falling from the sky..
falling from the iris of God's eye.
Somewhere there is a girl fighting..
Somewhere there is glass breaking..while inside she is cutting.
The security around her is crashing and breaking........
....Let it break.
and inside my bed I lay awake...
..my thoughts racing...my dreams begininng... while inside me there is nothing..
And there's too much around me and there's too much going on.
Because inside of me there is something dying.
I'm neither here nor there.
Im out of place everywhere.
Somewhere inside she hides, ambiguous to the outside.
Lost in thought.
Lost in fantasies.
Running to hide because she can not abide.
And there's too much around me and there is too much going on....
Give me one more hit.. I can take it.
Gimme some sort of fix to get through this.
My fingers bleed red as my fingers turn to fists...
And my demons are still prying...
and I am still dreaming..
Erasing my reality..
Lost in a fantasy..
While the screaming starts again..
And there's too much around me and there's too much going on...
I'll flee to save my sanity.
I hold this vulnerability.
And somewhere she is flying..
.... on the wings of a sparrow so high...
Falling asleep to dream in the iris of God's eye.
- Sparrow
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Post by Halo on May 27, 2005 21:29:09 GMT -5
I'm forever amazed at the talent on this board. You guys are great!
Sparrow, reading that, made me feel like you looked right inside me.
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Post by erishkigal on May 28, 2005 3:32:40 GMT -5
Everyone read pauls poem
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Post by xxxxSTINKFISTxxxx on May 28, 2005 3:34:15 GMT -5
Hello everyone, I know alot of you havnt seen me in a very very long time, someone I cared about and loved has just commited suicide, and ive been in really bad condition. I wrote this here for her, mybe she will see it, even if she cant i hope mybe she feels it.
You left me here alone, without any last goodbies.
I'll never see you smile, ill never hold you in my arms, and will never see you cry.
Your gone now but I feel you, your memory a blessing and still killing me inside.
Your always in my mind, your grave is buried inside my heart.
I was waiting for you and crying for you, it was your smile that kept me alive.
Let me die for you and suffer for you, for a final crime let me see your eyes.
Ill never hear your voice, and never feel your warmth, ill never fall into your arms, and kiss you goodnight.
Take a look at what you have done to me, your gone and ive lost my everything.
Torn out of life and thrown into more misery, everything you said ment the world to me, and I will remember it for all eternity.
Thinking of you as I close my eyes, let me dream of you so I can say goodbye, hold me tight and close your eyes, I will always love you, my one and only bride.
I will never forget you.
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Post by SparrowsSoliloquy on May 28, 2005 9:36:07 GMT -5
Im really sorry to hear that STINK.. that is so sad. I think on some level she feels it from you. All I can say is how sorry I am. She obviously meant a lot to you and in her absence you feel so alone and angry. Just know that Im thinking of you.. k? You writing was beautiful, I hope in some way that it helped you to write those words..I hope it helped you get your feelings out.... Love- Sparrow
...and Susan.. thank you for liking my poem.. I didnt realize at the time I was writing it that you would feel a kinship with it...maybe you should try writing.. it does wonders for me sometimes:) Ill talk to you later!
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Post by Halo on May 28, 2005 10:57:36 GMT -5
OMG stinkfist....I am so sorry.
I missed you here and was so worried about you. It's so good to see you, but I am so sorry for what you've been through.
I agree strongly with Sparrow. I know that she can feel you and you will always be able to feel her. She's gone from this earth, but she will always be here in some form, whether it be spirit or light or some form of energy, she is still here.
I hope you don't stay away. We missed you and we are all here for you. I'm glad to see you are still writing. That will help you a lot. Take care of yourself and if you need anything.....you let me know. If you need to rant, scream, cry, whatever.....I'm here to listen.
Lots of love to you.
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Post by Nessie on May 28, 2005 12:06:46 GMT -5
I am so sorry, Stinkfist, it's such a tragedy when someone chooses to rather die than staying alive.  Almost a year ago same happened to me, I know how you feel right now...  If you need to talk we are all here for you and we will listen! Lots of love, N. |
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Post by TheAnomicSoul on May 28, 2005 14:09:29 GMT -5
I'm really truely sorry stinkfist. That is a really horrible thing to go through. Lots of love from all of us. I really liked your writing. It was beautiful. Like Halo said, She is still there in some type of form. Once again I'm really forry for your loss. Take care |
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Post by xxxxSTINKFISTxxxx on May 28, 2005 20:08:38 GMT -5
I wanted to say thank you all very much for your support, it means the world to me to have great people such as yourselvs willing to help out. Thank you very much for the comments as well, that poetry was written from deep in my heart and it means alot to me, so thank you all so much . |
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Post by Halo on May 28, 2005 21:56:04 GMT -5
I could tell it was written from deep within your heart, stinkfist. And I thank you for sharing that with us.
You have all our support and love. You are part of our family here and we care about you.
I hope you continue to stop in here. Not just because you are missed, but because I'd hate to see you isolate yourself. I tend to do that when I am hurting and need people the most and it's not a good thing. So make sure you don't hide yourself away...we are here for you.
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Post by britany on May 30, 2005 19:23:40 GMT -5
I haven't read the poems for awhile and they are all GREAT! and i really loved pauls, i'm so sorry about what happened it's sad when some one dies that you love, try and take care |
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Post by Nessie on May 31, 2005 15:57:36 GMT -5
sweet seduction
feel your breath on my leg
shiver up and down my spine
your gentle lips
without saying a word
but now I'm waking up
from my dream
this sweet seduction
you don't see what I'm thinking
but I know you wanna feel it too
the touch of my fingers
wrapped around your neck
taking you closer
forever this moment
of sweet seduction
so walk away
out of my bittersweet dreams
wrapped in this illusion
I dive into another thought
knowing it will never be real
but I just can't let it go
you sweet seduction...
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Post by TheAnomicSoul on May 31, 2005 16:58:25 GMT -5
Hey, I like that poem Nessie. Very cool I've been in writers block again |
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